secret's out
it has finally hit me.
there are finally tears.
i thought i would never experience that feeling.
you know, that feeling where someone reaches in, grabs your heart and wrenches it.
yes, it literally hurts.
four years.
gone.
just like that.
how can it be so easy and difficult at the same time?
i knew i had to pay someday.
whenever you might need it.
*hug*